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restlesstiger49 said:Kinky !!! 😒

That’s enough to make me want to hang myself... maybe save one for a rainy day🤣

I'll be bringing my own whip and lasso 😍

restlesstiger49 said:We'll figure it out. codeword 😁

but things are going to get loud, messy, and absolutely chaotic... bras and high heels will be flying everywhere🤣

restlesstiger49 said:Honestly, I might just strip naked so people can spot us even easier. 🙂

Careful there, you might end up getting swarmed by a crowd of women, and then we'll have no way of identifying our fellow forum ladies🤣

I'm also a long-haired creature with glasses, just on the shorter side 🤣

Kevin Hayes83 said:It looks like everyone here is basically a PhD in psychopharmacology or something. I’m curious what you guys think, though. I’ve been dealing with these occasional panic attacks lately. We thought maybe it was my heart or my thyroid, but after doing every single test under the sun, everything organic is fine—well, except for an irritated stomach...

So, over the last two years, I’ve had about five attacks. They’re starting to get pretty unsettling. My heart starts racing, I feel like I can’t breathe... at first, I used to just take some Ativan, but now my doctor has me on this regimen: 11mg Concor 1.25, then one Misar 0.5 during the day, and one Xanax 0.25 at night because I keep waking up and can't sleep...

Given how often these attacks happen, should I actually talk to my doctor about maybe starting an antidepressant? Or should I just try to tough it out with this current setup? She basically told me I'm just being paranoid and need to chill out on my own...

The thing is, I see all the side effects and bullshit associated with SSRIs, so that’s why I’m asking...

Anyway, when I was on the 2.5 dose of Concor, I didn't have any anxiety issues, but it was causing other problems, so they dropped me down to 1.5. Now I don't have those complications, but the nerves are back...

I've been on this combo of Misar and Xanax for about a month now...

You should definitely talk to your doctor first. It really all comes down to what your specific panic attacks actually feel like...

restlesstiger49 said:Look, I have absolutely no intention, nor any desire, to be stuck on medication for the rest of my life.

Same here. I don't give a damn...👍

restlesstiger49 said:Yeah, it’s a real pain when it comes to that. But it’s well known that unlike other AD-ov, this one requires a much slower taper to quit.

And what can we actually do? For us BPD folks, there isn't much hope anyway. We'll probably just end up on our own... might as well at least have some meds on hand 🤣:klap:

silentmarlin76 said:@Jason Vaughn482, honestly, man, just toss out whatever you don't need and hang onto only what helps you actually get some sleep..
and look, about the Xanax thing—it doesn't really matter if you're taking a tiny dose or a big one, or even if you skip a day here and there... but once you've been on it regularly for a month or two, even if it's just daily doses, getting off it is a total nightmare. It gets "heavy," you know? And as time goes on, it just feels harder and harder to shake that crap..
and since you said you weren't on it constantly, like you mentioned earlier, you shouldn't have much trouble stopping.. at least give it a shot..
I'm rooting for you! 🙂

yeah, that med is absolute garbage and I totally feel you on that.. but that whole "bead by bead" thing sounds like total nonsense.. it's the first antidepressant I haven't been able to kick, and man, I am struggling like crazy. Right now I'm down to half a pill—because I refuse to swallow those little beads—and I'm still going through the wringer. If things get too bad, I might honestly just check myself into a clinic just so they can stabilize me a bit and make the tapering process less of a disaster.. this stuff created a real ADDICTION for me, even though some people say it's just a mood stabilizer.. basically, it's pure hell when it's not in my system..

Don't try to scare me; I've been on this stuff for years🤣 and my plan is to slowly taper off once my mental state settles. I've been telling my doctor that for a year now, but she just keeps saying, "I don't know, I'm worried you won't bounce back, especially since you're already on the lowest possible dose." She suggested we could drop the Valax, but keep the Danoptin because it serves as a mood stabilizer.

Thankfully, they've never put me on anxiolytics. 🙏
I was on some Ambien for maybe two or three weeks back when I was in a total coma phase.
Generally speaking, I've dealt with brutal side effects from so many different meds; it took forever to find the right fit. I'll never forget that bout of akathisia... I genuinely thought I was going to die...🤦

Jason Vaughn482 said:I find myself grappling with a rather unsettling realization lately; it seems that Hypnotik has cultivated a certain dependency within me, particularly when it comes to the effects of Sanval.
It is difficult for me to provide an exact assessment regarding my experience with Xanax, primarily because I was never entirely untethered from its influence to begin with; however, I did not feel as though I had developed a significant tolerance to it. While my ultimate ambition is to purge my system of every single one of these substances, the most daunting obstacle remains the loss of my "sleep aid." It is that specific reliance—that crutch used to force the mind into stillness—that makes the prospect of total sobriety feel so incredibly heavy.

Sanval is highly addictive, and you really shouldn't be on it for an extended period...

silentmarlin76 said:Honestly, man, going cold turkey on the Xanax and Valium has been hitting me like a freight train... I’m really struggling out here.
It’s just so hard to get used to actually falling asleep on your own after relying on those sleeping pills for so long, you know? In my experience, it takes at least a month of grinding through it before your body finally remembers how to just shut down naturally without help. That’s what happened with me, anyway.

Zoloft is a strange one. I’ve been on it for quite a while now, and if I miss even a single dose, my eyes start twitching left and right the very next day... plus I get this weird, unsettling nausea. It’s bizarre. I was also reading up on it, and apparently, for one antidepressant, it's a pretty intense ride. If you're trying to taper off, you have to go incredibly slow, essentially removing one tiny little bead at a time. Technically, antidepressants aren't supposed to be addictive—that's more the territory of anxiolytics. Thank God I don't have that problem... 😁
Has anyone here actually dealt with Depakote? It’s primarily prescribed for epilepsy, but they use it as a mood stabilizer too. It feels a little strange to me...

I actually really enjoyed this movie. It was a pleasant surprise, and the visuals were pretty impressive too... 👍

Around one-thirty 🙂

hiddenwalker30 said:So this one forum user will just show up late, and then she'll give the pro a call once she arrives to ask where the place is located? 🙂

Honestly, I’d love to check out the exhibition too.🙂

And honestly, I have no clue how I’m even going to make it there. Amtrak just slashed half their schedule, so now I’m stuck choosing between arriving way too early or being stuck waiting forever because I showed up too late...🙂

Truly a fantastic movie 👍

Andrew Doyle said:I honestly don't know how... it’s easy enough to say we need to change and actually put in the work, but...

Look, I’m pretty much in the exact same boat as you. Our partners are in similar positions too, but we managed to find our equilibrium a long time ago—he doesn't pressure me to go out and socialize, and I don't try to clip his wings when he wants to be out there being seen and heard.

He’s the kind of guy who can strike up a conversation with anyone from a seven-year-old to a seventy-seven-year-old, whereas I am his polar opposite. I keep a very tight-knit circle of friends—friendships that have lasted at least a decade. These people are scattered all over the country, but they remain a constant in my life; we stay connected and truly know what’s going on with one another.

On top of all that, I live in a small town, which makes me seem even more "odd" by local standards because I’m just not interested in sitting at a Starbucks for hours or joining in on the daily gossip sessions. I'm certainly not the type to walk through the park and flash a fake smile at everyone just because our kids happened to end up playing on the same slide. To put it bluntly, I am an introvert, and when it comes to choosing who I spend my time with, I am incredibly selective. My partner, due to both his career and his temperament, is my total antithesis. Yet, despite this massive divide in our social lives, we get along famously.🙂

👍

I’m in the exact same boat, except my introversion actually causes friction at work. My boss expects me to be this hyperactive, bubbly presence who joins her and her little favorites for daily coffee breaks to gossip. Honestly, I couldn't care less about any of that. I don't have kids or grandkids, I don't watch Suleiman, and I don't even cook, so food isn't really my thing. Plus, I simply don't have the time... unlike them, I'm actually working.

I use cotton swabs to clean my ears—yeah, I know, doctors say not to—but I’ve honestly never had an issue before. Then yesterday, my right ear started acting up with this dull ache. I'm also wondering about this clicking sensation I get in both ears whenever I move my jaw around... I've actually felt that forever. I spent all day yesterday and today just fidgeting with my jaw, moving it back and forth, and now I can feel how much I've overstrained the muscles. Basically, now when I move it, the clicking is way more noticeable in that right ear. It almost feels like when I hear that pop, the pressure or pain in my ear eases up for a split second... I don't even know how to describe it properly. That's why I keep doing it; I can't seem to stop, even though I know it's probably a bad idea. What exactly is that clicking sound...?

mistycyclist4 said:I've only been on Taylor Swift for about 10 days and I've already dropped 6 pounds. I get nauseous sometimes, so I just don't feel like eating. My doctor told me that was expected and that weight loss is part of the deal. I don't feel any better yet, though—maybe I haven't been on it long enough. I'm sticking with it and we'll see.

So apparently, I'm the only one who's just gaining weight.🤣

edit: I realized, after looking closer at the details (they did a pretty clever job with the wordplay 🤣), that this was actually coming out of the $2667 fund. That’s why it felt a bit off to me. Anyway, it's all sorted now.

We constantly get this mail from Penguin Random House acting like, "Buy this and that to enter our annual awards gala," blah blah blah... I know it’s all just a gimmick to get us to spend money, but now they’re claiming if you order a specific CD set by $100, you get a guaranteed gift worth about $1,200??? It feels a bit sketchy to me, though I guess they can't legally print total nonsense in their promos. So, I have a question—what's the catch here? 😕🤷