I don't know how many times this has come up over the last couple of years, but here we go again, Joe Black style.
We all signed a blank contract a long time ago. Open-ended. No specific terms negotiated. A few people actually signed knowing roughly when it might happen—not a date or a specific hour, mind you, just a vague timeframe, though it always feels like there’s never quite enough time. One side of the deal is usually pretty much set in stone. I can only really try to haggle over the perks. I have just one wish, though. The contract is already finalized; there’s no breaking it now. At this point, it’s basically just an amendment. It’s only been two years, maybe less. I haven't worked out the fine print yet. Maybe I should talk to a lawyer? But then again, who would represent someone walking the line? Who could possibly guarantee that the other party will be merciful or actually follow through on the agreement? Can anyone truly be lucky or certain enough to have their wishes granted before crossing over? Or do you just leave without that final request being met? There aren't any magic lamps out there. So, do you just keep hoping until the end?...
I’d like to live as long as the longest day lasts. The worms would have finished their job long ago, but I’d still be out there, stubbornly chasing that one thing that remains just out of reach. One day I’ll catch it, surely! I’d still want to hear that obnoxious alarm clock every single morning, even if I knew I was going to mess something up today, fall behind schedule, or just screw something up. Life happens to everyone, after all. Once someone finally shows me the gates of heaven and that guy with the white beard and the shepherd's staff leads me in, then I'll gladly call it quits!
I’m totally on board with that. I think maybe I was just hung up on how nonsensical it all sounded at first glance... but honestly, when people don't understand Alternative Medicine, they tend to dismiss it as some kind of weird mysticism or dark magic. In reality, it’s just the natural laws of the universe acting on us constantly, whether we realize it or not. It’s just that our current tools and standard scientific methods aren't quite sensitive enough to detect it yet. At the end of the day, we’re all just children of the cosmos, regardless of what some little needle on a gauge tells us.
Just a quick correction here, among other things. While 70% alcohol is a decent disinfectant, it’s really nothing compared to iodine tincture or hydrogen peroxide. Those are far more effective because they actually denature proteins and help clear away necrotic tissue. Compared to them, alcohol is basically chamomile tea... Besides, it stings. God, it stings. I’ve known that since I was a kid, back when my mom used to pour straight whiskey on my scraped knees (yeah, yeah, I was a handful...). If you actually want a solid antiseptic for external wounds, just grab some Octenisept or Hibisep; they’re effective even against HIV.
Don't sweat it too much, you've still got a long way to go before you're actually an adult. Maturity isn't a destination, it's more of a lifelong process of learning how not to mess things up... You'll find plenty more girlfriends, "friends," and casual flings along the way, and honestly, you'll probably be better at navigating them each time. Things tend to get clearer eventually.👍 My advice? Just let this one wash over you. Don't dwell on it. Instead, try finding some new circles, meet some different people, and get into some new hobbies. Variety is the spice of life, after all.☕
bluemaker52 said:http://fliiby.com/file/353194/yy91an0xi8.html It’s beautiful while it lasts, isn't it? But nothing stays perfect forever... They say that once the pain becomes too much to bear, you realize just how fleeting everything was—and usually, by then, it's already too late. Still, there are happy endings out there if you know where to look; check under section 5.
I don't think it's really about being "in love" (though they certainly care, in whatever capacity), it feels more like an obsession with one specific person that's been dragging on for way too long. You can't really be jealous of a friend—not like this. When it's just a friend, you aren't bothered when they hang out with others; you don't feel rejected or abandoned because you know the connection is still there. Friendship always leaves room for independence. Friends don't need to see each other every single day, spend every night together, or share every tiny detail of their lives; everyone keeps their own sense of self. You can't truly be someone's soulmate in that way. When you're younger, you tend to crave that intense closeness before you finally head out into the real world. A mature adult learns how to exist on their own. Truly alone. And only then are they actually ready for deeper connections with others. It isn't even about love at that point—you give love to friends, partners, your mom, your kids... it's different. But a mature, friendly kind of love allows the other person to grow and move in their own direction, even if you eventually drift apart completely. At least you'll know you had a friend. This whole thing still feels like a phase of depending on others, like being part of a pack, as if the umbilical cord of total belonging hasn't been cut yet. It’s only once that cord is severed—once you feel completely solitary, and through that, feel strong and secure—that you can actually start building serious relationships on a real foundation...
It’s basically just a dietary supplement and a glorified wellness aid. There’s hardly any actual scientific data to back it up, and honestly, what little research does exist isn't exactly groundbreaking... It’s one of those things where companies always seem to make a killing. Just like Ginkgo Biloba, B vitamins, and all that other stuff you see everywhere.
Brian Wells said:I've reached an agreement with my doctor about tapering off Lorsilan..
.... but I can't really make it happen. I just can't afford to deal with a long withdrawal period right now because of my family and work commitments.😢
Does anyone here have any first-hand experience with Tryptozen? Is it true it's supposed to act similarly to Xanax, but it's derived from milk?🙂
It's based on the amino acid tryptophan, which serves as a precursor and substrate for creating 5-hydroxytryptamine—otherwise known as serotonin. What’s interesting is that none of these supplements ever specify the exact chemical formula for that famous "milk peptide." Since peptides are essentially chains of amino acids, you really need to know the precise chemical structure to understand how they interact with cellular biochemistry. There are some studies out there, though they aren't particularly precise; they tend to focus more on observing results rather than establishing actual neurophysiology. Beyond that, they don't seem to share the same structure as benzodiazepines, nor do they bind to GABA receptors the way benzos do. That said, they do yield a decent effect, almost comparable to pharmacological options. Not quite at the same intensity, obviously, because if they function by increasing serotonin, then we're looking at a completely different biochemical pathway—even if the end result feels similar. After all, SSRIs and benzodiazepines have somewhat overlapping effects. In any case, there haven't been reports of toxicity or severe side effects, but you shouldn't expect miracles either. Plus, you generally have to take them consistently over a period of time before you notice anything concrete...
Look, if you really think about it, all this effort you're putting in is actually just a symptom of lacking self-control. If you truly had it, you wouldn't be feeling this constant, frantic urge regarding your diet. It sounds like a paradox, I know, but that lack of control is exactly what’s driving these obsessive behaviors in the first place. Honestly, nobody can have a grip on every single aspect of their life—besides, why would anyone need to? Most people function just fine without being perfectionists. You aren't some sort of outlier here. Just listen to your body and what it needs, and learn how to just... let go. Insecure people tend to think that if they lose sight of everything, they won't have the strength to fix any potential disasters. But you have to realize that these are just normal life situations that everyone deals with; it's not a catastrophe. Nothing particularly dangerous is going to happen to you. A mature, self-assured adult knows they'll figure things out regardless of whatever mess they stumble into. So, it’s not about needing "self-control" or understanding the concept; it's about having enough inner security to feel like a whole, adult, responsible person. That's where a therapist comes in to guide you, though you've got plenty of work to do on your own too. Just relax. Like a blade of grass in the wind, you'll eventually settle back into place. Just be the grass...
Scott Alvarez43 said:I’m currently taking Normabell and Misar twice a day on a regular basis, because if I don't, the panic attacks start hitting, my hands begin shaking, and I just can't sleep. I suppose I might have developed a dependency, but honestly, I feel like I can't function at all without them. Does anyone have any actual, sensible advice? I think I understand what the issue is, but I just don't have the money to see a psychiatrist right now. It's killing me, and I really don't know how to manage without them.
There are psychiatrists covered by insurance if you go through the public health system... you just have to be patient and try to get on a waiting list. That specific combo is a bit unusual, too. There might be better options out there for you...
You can do this, I’m certain of it. Just don't rush things; everything has a way of settling into place eventually. This isn't some sudden revolution... it's more of a process, one that sometimes demands a lifetime of commitment. But things always tend to look up in the end. Don't give up now. Everything you're doing and thinking is exactly where it needs to be.👍
Brian Wells said:What are your thoughts or experiences with Tianeptine (ExxonMobil)? Maybe share a bit about how it works or what you've heard. I've been on it for three weeks now and I feel more balanced, but the goal of tapering off my current dose of 2+2+1 Ativan still feels pretty far away.
Just to clarify, I was taking 14 mg of Ativan daily a few months ago. I reached that level over a 15-year period dealing with anxiety and depression. Even without an antidepressant, I managed to drop down to 5 mg without facing severe withdrawal. My doctor put me on an antidepressant to help lower the Ativan, but it seems like the withdrawal symptoms actually get worse every time I try to taper down.
Do you have any suggestions or personal experience? Thanks.
If you’ve already managed to get down to 5 mg of Lorazepam a day, you could probably be completely off it within the next few weeks. Mind you, I don't know your full diagnosis or specific symptoms, so maybe you actually need to stay on the tianeptine for a while longer. That’s ultimately for your doctor to decide, but a treatment plan aimed at totally weaning off benzos is often the right move. That feeling where you think you can't function without them and it just drags you into a dark place... it isn't ideal. Just try to ignore that sensation...
Jerry Martinez5 said:I went on Google and saw that Xanax was actually a milder psychotropic drug. I guess I just got my threads mixed up.
My apologies to everyone: please, could you check if a similar thread already exists before starting a new one? Maybe try using the search bar first. Thanks. 🙂
Technically, they both fall under the "psychotropic" umbrella, just with different mechanisms, different symptoms, and different diagnoses. With Lexapro, you'll sleep like a log. Beyond that, though, one is an antipsychotic while tiagabine is one of those newer antidepressants...
Walter Fowler5 said:Thanks a million. I’ve had to scale my dosage back, taking half a pill one day and then a full one the next. Honestly, I feel a bit better today, though I'm mostly just feeling incredibly dull and numb from the pain.
That’s pretty much how it goes at first. The whole trick is just to let your brain chill out for a second and give your thoughts a rest. Everything will settle in eventually, don't sweat it. Just get some fresh air, stay out of the direct sun, maybe go for a little walk...
Walter Fowler5 said:Does anyone have any insight into what the side effects of Coaxil are like? Brenda Carter prescribed it to me to help manage some mental health issues. I’ve been taking it for about four days now, and my jaw feels completely locked up—it's a bizarre sensation. I can barely string a sentence together because I feel so physically blocked. My head feels numb, too. I'm not having any dark or intrusive thoughts, thankfully, but I am incredibly drowsy.
Sonalia is basically the same thing as Halea—it's a selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor. It can definitely cause symptoms like that, so you should probably mention it to your doctor right away. Some side effects are manageable, but that jaw tension might mean you need a different medication entirely. There are plenty of options out there, so just talk to your psychiatrist ASAP. Besides, four days isn't really enough time to judge; maybe the side effects will settle down... You also tend to get drowsiness, constipation, or just a general sense of being "foggy." Usually, that clears up after a few weeks. Also, you're supposed to titrate it—meaning you ease into it over a week or two, slowly bumping up the dose until you hit the target amount. If you jumped straight into a full dose, it’s no wonder things feel off. You can't just start at 50mg; you have to start with a fraction of that...
Why do you feel like you need an audience just to process what’s happening or how you’re feeling? Maybe at college, you aren't loud enough, or maybe you just don't have the nerve to speak up, ask questions, or navigate the unwritten rules of certain cliques. For the most part, life was fine until university hit—that stage where social development kicks in and you start looking for where you fit in the world. At the same time, you're building your own sense of self, pushing back against the idea that family is your only safety net, and outgrowing old friends who are too busy trying to prove they belong to the pack. Then comes the true period of individualization—that stretch of young adulthood where you're essentially learning how to be a fully functioning, independent human being. Once you cross that threshold, you aren't dependent on anyone anymore. You get to hand-pick your friends, your partners, and the different circles that satisfy specific needs in your life. When we're kids, we don't have a choice; our school, our friend groups, our neighborhoods, our families... it's all just handed to us. But once we grow up, we can actually change our circumstances and the people we surround ourselves with (I'm not talking about professional obligations or basic survival here, obviously). So, do any of this resonate with you? And I'd love to hear more about that initial point you made... it was an interesting observation.
stormyjackal46 said:I’d say I only started building my walls last year... mostly because it's easier to stomach that way. Sometimes I feel like some lost little kid; someone walks up and asks me what time it is, and I just stand there with tears in my eyes, wondering if they want to be my friend. So, I have a boyfriend... and he’s dealing with some seriously intense social anxiety.
But now I’ve gone and lost the thread of what the original poster was actually saying...
no, you are... you're talking about loneliness. go on...
So, I’m curious—in what kind of scenarios would you actually want someone else around? No, I'm being serious. I'd really love for you all to write down those specific moments or durations where you feel that tug to not be alone. Basically, when you just want someone there... or maybe even when you feel like you "have" someone by your side. And why does that need hit you in those specific moments? Is it a constant thing for you, or does it only pop up during certain times when you just want to bounce ideas off someone or finally say what's on your mind? Or maybe it's something else entirely... When did this start happening for you? Was it back in middle school, early on, right before starting elementary school, or maybe just before puberty hit? Or was it later, once everyone drifted off to different corners of the country after graduation, getting busy with jobs, moving away, getting married... Or is it just when things go sideways and you need someone to vent to about your problems? Or perhaps you just want someone incredibly close who's always within reach when you need them, and obviously, when they need you too... It's a lot of questions. Just sort through them and see what comes back to you.🙂