Dennis Barnes77 said:It doesn't have to be right now,
but in a few years, it’s looking pretty inevitable.
I need to find a community that isn't some kind of concentration camp.
Because apparently, according to everyone else, there's nowhere else in this world for someone like me to fit in.
Some guy with a shotgun who lost his mind was in a similar spot once.
So, what's the alternative? Retreat back into video games and let what little personality I have left just wither away until I'm bouncing between psychiatric wards?
As if I'm guilty of anything, I've just been screwed over by life.
I could accept it if I had spent my whole life being a total piece of trash and treating people like garbage, but I haven't.
But that last part... that's where the issue lies.
That's just it.
Just because you haven't been a total scumbag doesn't mean other people don't get to be one to you.
Screw all those rules, the morality, and whatever other nonsense they preach at church.
Just live your life however you want, and hey, if that means stepping over people just to find some actual satisfaction or happiness, then so be it.
Goodness doesn't really pay you back—not in any way that actually matters, anyway.
Just be yourself and stop giving a damn about everything else. Be a jerk, I guess, but at least be a happy jerk instead of some miserable saint.