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briskgardener2 said:So many of us are just wandering through the darkness clouding our lives... desperately searching for even a single spark of hope amidst the nothingness. The despair feels too heavy to fill the void inside, and when everything else fades away, all that’s left is the ache. In our final moments, we might cry out to the heavens, begging for the agony to end, but it doesn't... it just keeps breathing right along with us. Maybe it's because we keep looking at the stars for guidance, completely missing the brightest light of all: ourselves.
In your title, you ask how to stop the racing, dark thoughts... and you say you're looking for help. But from what I can see, you aren't actually accepting any of the advice being offered; you just find a reason to reject it every single time. Honestly, I bet if someone gave you a thousand different solutions, you’d find a way to call every single one of them stupid. Don't take this the wrong way—I don't agree with half the stuff people suggest either, and I'm not going to hide behind some psychiatrist or all that clinical talk. I know what you...what you really want is a quick little ritual. Something you can do in five minutes, sleep on, and wake up the next morning thinking, "Yay! It's gone! The pain is over!" You probably won't admit that, though. You'll claim you want to change, that you need a way out, but notice how you find a flaw in every single suggestion? You’re almost digging your heels in, stubbornly insisting you'll end it just because someone tells you what to do, right? It’s like those suggestions are pushing you even closer to the edge. I get that you want to die, but you also want to live—just not like this. It’s hard to swallow the fact that we are the only ones who can change this way of living. People always say "suicide isn't the answer," but that's just a blunt reality. I know you want the pain to vanish, but believe me, it can fade by staying alive... you don't need superhuman strength to make that happen. You already have everything you need. The idea of trying to think positively is solid advice. Of course, it won't be fixed overnight. Just try, because you can and because you want to live... it's brutal, but it's worth it. Maybe you can't see it now, but isn't it worth sticking around just to see if it's true? Put in all that effort and grit (which you have way more of than you realize), and if you still fail, then come back and say: "Okay, I tried, and it didn't work." But don't throw in the towel right at the starting line. Don't just throw your hands up and scream, "I can't change anything!" Well, of course you can't if you truly believe that. I know you're exhausted and the depression is deep, but listen: you can do this. Just take it one day at a time. Try for just one day to tell yourself: "I am strong, I am capable." Just for one day, kick those thoughts like "I should just end it" or "I'm a loser" out of your head. When they creep in, just don't let them stay. Do that for one day and see how you feel by bedtime. It's hard, but commit to it and you'll see results. It won't be some grand cinematic moment, but it's a start. Besides, you said every day feels the same and boring anyway. So why not try this? Or are you going to tell me this annoys you, too? I'm not saying it isn't boring and miserable, but give it a shot because you're able to. Does it make sense to just toss your potential into the trash?! It’s like if Mike Tyson had to pick up a five-pound bag and just started sobbing, "I can't do it, it's too heavy!" (?!) That's exactly what you're doing. It's "too hard," but you haven't even stepped onto the field yet.
You aren't the only one stuck in this mess. There are plenty of us, and honestly, many are dealing with much darker shit than this, yet we keep fighting. You can too. And even if you stumble, you'll get back up. The point is, you aren't alone.

dustyhound5 said:Look, kid, here's some perspective from another user on this board
with the handle gandharve:

"I was talking to an expert in this field (suicide)—an Indian yoga teacher, a guy who was born with abilities we’re still trying to train ourselves to achieve in this life or the next, and he really knows his stuff.

He told me:

Every one of us has a physical body and an energetic body. As long as you're living a normal life, that energetic body keeps charging up and discharging based on the state of your chakras—our energy centers. Every time we get angry or hit a 'negative' patch, those chakras shut down and the energy flow stops. But when we open up—through prayer, meditation, or immersing ourselves in art, beauty, and love—the chakras open back up, the energy flows, and it stays that way until our energy eventually runs dry. It happens sooner for some and later for others, and then death comes. Everyone decides their own timing:
If you shut down, the energy stops flowing, nothing new comes in, and you (your physical body) just burn through your reserves. If you stay open, you receive new energy—you essentially extend your life. It's all on you.

The moment someone takes their own life, the connection between the physical and the energetic body snaps. The link between the generator (the energetic body and the chakras) and the consumer (our physical body) is broken.

There's no more consuming the stored energy, because the consumer is now lying in the ground decaying, while we (the energetic body) are left wandering the astral plane without our senses (our nose is still tied to the body, eyes too, touch, taste, smell—everything is stuck there)
And imagine the mess that creates.
Our consciousness remains with us (since at least it isn't gone) until that energy finally runs out. Just think about it:

Suppose we were meant to live, say, 80 years with the consumer of that energy (our physical body), but we destroy it early. We're left wandering the astral realm for maybe 700 or 900 years until our 'capacitor' finally drains completely.
With full awareness of our existence, of everything we did and everything we did to others, both good and bad...
There is absolutely nowhere to run from that...

That's why suicide is the worst mistake a person can ever make for themselves."

So go ahead, be the fool and see if what this guy is saying is actually true.

dustyhound5 said:A friend of mine tried it once. He took a bunch of pills and pesticides, thinking he’d just drift off into a permanent sleep... but that wasn't the reality at all. Instead, his brain basically melted, and he died in absolute agony.
I will never, ever be able to forget what happened to him.

Harold Adams5 said:Since everyone else has been busy comforting you, I’ll try scaring you instead.
- According to the laws of karma, if you don't finish what you're supposed to do in this life,
you're coming back as a woman. (Can you even imagine being one? lol)
And if that doesn't spook you... just picture being a woman in Afghanistan... (that hits home for me! :-))
..your husband will beat you, skip all the romance, and just take what he wants—basically assault. You'll end up with 12 kids and trust me, you won't have any downtime to feel depressed or even think about suicide.
..plus, there's no TV or computer!
Now, chew on that.

dustyhound5 said:Look, kid,

suicide actually hurts.
It isn't just some "close your eyes and it's over" thing.
And who’s giving you any guarantee that there isn't something waiting for you on the other side?
Who knows where your soul ends up? For all we know, whatever comes after death might be even more agonizing than what you're dealing with right now...

There's zero proof that death is any better than life.

Peter Hayes2 said:super helpful

I'm assuming you actually read the book, too?

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