Ethan Garcia said:Thanks for the reply. I want to wish a Happy Easter to you, your mom, the kids, and the rest of your family.
Just as a heads-up, I guess you couldn't tell from my post—I'm a guy, 26 years old. 😎
Regarding whether I'm a believer... I don't know anymore. I was. I think I still believe, just not in that rigid way the Church demands; it's more of a different kind of faith. And honestly, it’s hard to blindly trust in a God who allows good people to suffer like this.
Still, the thought of Paradise provides some comfort. Or maybe just some eternal dream, like when we sleep, where we can relive the best moments of our lives... The idea that everything just ends after death scares me. That the body and brain just shut down and that's it. No more... And scientifically speaking, that's actually the only reality.
But anyway, I won't dive into the philosophy of death... getting off track here. My question is—how do you carry on with your life and distance yourself from the suffering we go through when our loved ones are sick? How do you actually enjoy an afternoon coffee with a friend, daydream about being at the beach, grab a cocktail, or take the dog for a walk? Those simple, everyday things have just vanished. I have no desire to go out, to talk, to work... How do you deal with the fact that you are constantly surrounded by illness and you simply cannot escape it? (Physically you can, but the thoughts always follow you)...
Life IS suffering. How can good people suffer so much? Look, even God suffered (the cross is just a symbol of His pain; His true suffering runs much deeper), and He was completely without sin.
Suffering isn't "evil." You can absolutely find happiness through suffering. A mother goes through pain during childbirth, but from that pain, a child is born—the greatest joy in this world.
Don't fall into the trap of thinking you don't have the right to live your life, or to have those coffees with friends, just because others are hurting. The whole world is filled with suffering, yet people live! God wants you to live life to the fullest every single day, as if it were your last.
I once wrote about how I realized that God—or Life, or Space, that higher energy controlling the chaos—is very pragmatic when He wants to teach us something or restore balance. Don't forget, if you believe in Paradise, that faith includes the fact that we are only here temporarily to prepare ourselves through these earthly experiences for what comes next.
I know exactly how you feel; I was in that exact same spot. But let things mature within you; let yourself realize what He is trying to tell you. Maybe all of this is happening precisely because God wants to say something to *you* (that's that pragmatism I mentioned before; for me, it feels divine).
Accept this suffering. It will make things easier, and eventually, everything will click into place, both in your mind and in your life.
Please, take everything I've written as the fruit of someone who has truly lived through deep life experiences. Seriously, I'm not just talking nonsense. It might sound crazy to you right now, but one day you will surely reach the same conclusion yourself. Believe me, once you do, you will become incredibly peaceful and fulfilled—just let it ripen inside you.
Of course you're avoiding people who don't understand you; you've already started changing through this experience. Don't blame them for their ignorance. Instead, be glad that you have the chance to gain these vital life insights that you can eventually share with them. MANY WILL LOOK AT YOU STRANGELY, BUT MANY WILL BE INFINITELY GRATEFUL.
p.s. Sorry, I realized you're a man. I was just replying to everyone in order and mixed up the gender while typing.