When someone claims their life has lost all meaning because they lost a loved one, honestly, they probably didn't have much meaning to begin with... I mean, if you "love" someone so intensely that their absence leaves you with zero reason to keep breathing, what you’re really talking about isn't love at all, but attachment, selfishness, possessiveness, addiction, or just some deep-seated habit... none of those things are actually love. No one else can live your life for you, so it’s frankly borderline sacrilegious to dump the burden of your existence onto someone else, expecting them to provide your purpose, while simultaneously ignoring your own responsibility to figure out what makes your life worth living... which is something only you can do. People like that are just lying to themselves, clinging to a delusional little bubble and refusing to look in the mirror... there is absolutely no way to help them until they decide to change on their own.🤷 Sure, you can listen to them vent if you have the patience, but eventually, they'll have to face reality alone—because at the end of the day, nobody is going to step in and live their life for them.😉
p.s. It’s perfectly natural to go through a whirlwind of emotions—denial, refusal to accept, anger, rage, sadness, anxiety, maybe even total despair—when we lose someone close. But time is the ultimate healer for everything... that’s just how the whole human race operates, there’s no other way it works. And if an individual stubbornly refuses to let time do its thing, then the issue isn't the loss itself, it’s the person.
Benjamin Taylor6 said:Look, I know plenty of people who are absolute saints—super kind, incredibly gentle, and perpetually optimistic. And what happens? They end up attracting all kinds of absolute garbage into their lives through no fault of their own. Then, on the flip side, I know people who don't visualize a single thing, don't touch Transurfing, don't even try—and yet, everything just seems to fall perfectly into place for them.
Maybe they’re just putting on an act, pretending to be these sweet, optimistic souls while secretly seething inside because life feels so unfair... you know, because they’re being so obedient, so good, working so hard and playing by the rules, only for life to throw nothing but garbage at them! Meanwhile, look at the neighbors—they haven't lifted a finger, they don't even seem to care, and yet everything just works out perfectly for them... they must be crooks, honestly...🙄 😁
It’s actually pretty fascinating how the universe always knows exactly what we're actually thinking, even when we manage to pull the wool over everyone else's eyes, or even our own... 😍
And then there are those people who have plenty, the high rollers, the types where having a massive pile of cash doesn't hurt one bit; they view money as a friend, as something positive they truly deserve to possess, so they simply do... 🤷 If you spend your whole life thinking about money as something dirty, or something that leads to sin, or just some necessary evil, you can't really expect it to just rain down from the sky. 😛 And when it doesn't happen (because, let's face it, the universe always knows the truth! 😉), you just sit there complaining about your bad luck and how you've been screwed over your entire life. 😁
So, tell me again that we aren't all constantly "transurfing" without even realizing it, just drifting through life on autopilot. Wouldn't it be better to actually take charge of your mind and consciously cultivate good, positive thoughts? You know, actually taking responsibility for the way we design our own lives... 😉
Man, seriously guys, just give the feeling some space and write with the letter, it honestly breaks my heart seeing how you all just crush it with that little checkmark...🙂
Mark Torres14 said:I don't think we should ever accept a different opinion. There's always some logic behind it that we just haven't summarized yet. What we don't understand irritates us. And once we get irritated, that defense mechanism kicks in—we either flat-out deny that a different view even exists, or we dismiss the person holding it. If they aren't using *our* specific logic, we decide they're mentally ill or, even worse, just pathetic.
Hey, Mark Torres14, look who decided to show up! It’s been ages since I saw you typing away here... 😍
See, the thing isn't really about whether you should accept a differing opinion, it's more about acknowledging the mere existence of those different opinions in the first place. There’s a massive distinction there, don't you think... 😉
Edward Murphy4 said:Cute... But let's be real: people can't help but argue their points, which is basically just a fancy way of trying to convince you. It’s rarely just about laying out reasons—it’s usually a subtle power play to prove their logic is tighter, smarter, or just better than yours. Basically, it's an ego trip wrapped in an argument.
Well, I don't know if people are actually all that eager to argue their positions, honestly. Most people hold an opinion without ever feeling the need to sit down and analyze why they feel that way in the first place. (Though everyone naturally assumes their own reasoning is solid, which makes sense, because if they didn't, they'd probably just change their minds.)
On the flip side, we constantly run into these demands where people insist we provide arguments to back up what we’re claiming. Does that mean the people demanding those arguments actually want to be persuaded by us?
I don't think so, so I don't see argumentation as necessarily being a tool for persuasion either. After all, the person being presented with arguments always retains the total freedom to accept them or ignore them entirely...
So, my take is that nobody can truly convince anyone of anything—whether they bring evidence or not—if the other person doesn't want to be convinced. Therefore, any kind of persuasion is essentially just a pointless drain on your energy, and it seems much easier to me to just accept that people simply have different opinions (even regarding the exact same subject), and for the sake of your own mental health, it's better to just tolerate them, since they aren't going to influence your own views unless you decide to let them... 🤷 😍
I couldn't find anything specific about this in the existing threads, so I figured I'd just throw it out here and see if anyone knows anything about this "Medolight" device—the one that uses light therapy... Apparently, it operates on red and infrared light waves and is supposed to help with prevention, healing, and supposedly balancing out your body's energy levels... Does anyone actually have any hands-on experience with it, or is it just more of that pseudo-science stuff that doesn't really work?
Chris Peterson53 said:Or what about those people who just seem to have the universe on their side? I’m talking about folks who aren't even religious—so they don't credit God for their luck—and they don't buy into any spiritual "law of attraction" nonsense either. They’re just the type of people who happen to trip over a twenty-dollar bill on a sidewalk, or find a piece of jewelry just lying there. Or maybe they answer some random trivia question out of sheer boredom and walk away with a massive prize. Even that scenario where a wealthy aunt leaves her entire estate to one specific person instead of her twenty other nieces and nephews—even when that person barely spent any time looking after her... Recently, a cousin of mine—someone who fits this description perfectly—inherited everything from another relative, who didn't leave a single cent to their own immediate family. Knowing plenty of other people blessed with this strange kind of luck, I've been sitting here wondering why, but I haven't found an answer... 😉 How do you actually explain these kinds of occurrences? Is it pure predestination? Some subconscious power to attract material wealth? ☕
I honestly think it comes down to their general outlook on life. These people just make a conscious choice to stay positive regardless of whatever chaos life throws at them. It sounds incredibly simple when you say it out loud, but if you really stop to think about how often we actually let anxiety and fear take the driver's seat, you realize how much our own biases and ingrained negative patterns pull us under... we get so caught up in the gloom that we forget to notice how often things might actually be working out in our favor, or how the world could just be okay if we let it be. And I suppose there's also this tendency to chase after things we want—things that might not even be good for us in the long run—because we’re too stubborn to let go, even when we should.
I know people who aren't believers, not in any traditional sense or even in those New Age ways, but their whole vibe is just that the world is a decent, pleasant place where they have everything they need. And, well, it turns out they actually do. ☕
I've realized lately that even though my actual circumstances haven't changed much, I'm not always feeling that same level of optimism every single day. So what's the deal? It can't be anything other than my own mental gymnastics that, whenever I let them run wild, drag me away from peace and right back into the mess... It’s probably better to just steer those thoughts in a more positive direction, because at the end of the day, our thoughts belong to us; we build them ourselves, which means we can rebuild them too, so why bother surrendering to the ones that leave us feeling miserable.🤷
So, yeah, don't worry, think positive, and be happy! 😉
Still nothing on my end either. Every time I try hitting Ctrl and the plus or minus keys, all it does is mess with the font size, making everything tiny or huge, but the page width stays exactly the same... It’s honestly infuriating...😢
No matter how hard I tried to find even a single redeeming quality in this movie, I just couldn't... It was honestly a total disaster. 🤦 I think I actually had more fun watching that one car commercial featuring Optimus Prime.
It’s honestly pretty dense to go around acting like science is just some collective hallucination, because it isn't... It actually provides the framework for the world we experience every single day, and the fact that we mistake this perceived reality for some kind of absolute, unshakeable truth is just a matter of perspective, I suppose... But even with all the progress we've made, science is still lightyears away from tackling the heavy hitters—like who we actually are at our core, or what the hell the point of our existence even is in the grand scheme of things.
I’m sorry if this question is a bit off-topic, but I honestly wasn't sure where else to turn to find some actual information on this. If there's anyone here with medical expertise who could weigh in or offer an opinion, I’d really appreciate it. So, my daughter’s physiatrist recommended she get an X-ray of her entire spine along with some ankle imaging following the Barschonij method, but when I called over to the Holy Spirit hospital to schedule it, they actually pushed back on me... they asked why I was okay with exposing such a young person to that much radiation, and basically told me to think twice about whether this is truly necessary!?! I mean, I’m completely in the dark regarding how harmful X-ray radiation actually is, and I'm torn on whether I should just go ahead and book the appointment or not. 🤷
"Bushido (the \"Way of the Warrior\"), is a Japanese code of conduct and a way of life. You could say it shares certain traits with the Western concept of chivalry. Bushido evolved from the 11th to the 14th century through various texts. According to the Merriam-Webster dictionary, Bushido is defined as a unique philosophy (ronri) that spread among the warrior class during the Muromachi period. The core tenets of Bushido date back to the early 12th century, clearly showing the earliest translations of literature from Japanese warrior houses. During the Tokugawa shogunate, Bushido was even incorporated into Japanese feudal laws. Inazo Nitobe, in his book “Bushido: Soul of Japan,” describes it in his own way: “…Bushido is thus a code of moral principles that the samurai were to follow, or were commanded to study… It is more often an unspoken and unwritten code… Bushido is the lifelong growth of decades and centuries of military careers.”
here are the rules;
01. I have no parents; heaven and earth are my parents. 02. I have no divine powers; devotion is my power. 03. I have no home; obedience is my home. 04. I have no goals; from flexibility, I create my goal. 05. I have no life; eternity is my life and my death. 06. I have no body; my strength is my body. 07. I have no eyes; my eyes are the flash of lightning. 08. I have no ears; my ears are sensitivity. 09. I have no limbs; my limbs are my readiness. 10. I have no plans or strategy; my strategy is opportunity. 11. I have no demands; my demands are adaptation. 12. I have no friends; my friends are my spirit and mind. 13. I have no enemies; my enemy is unawareness. 14. I have no armor; goodwill and righteousness are my armor. 15. I have no momentum; from an unmoving mind, I create momentum. 16. I have no sword; the absence of mind is my sword.
and more;
01. Do not stray from your Way. 02. Do not think only of pleasures, entertainment, and self-indulgence. 03. Do not be selfish. 04. Do not regret what has been done. 05. Do not envy others. 06. Do not grieve at parting. 07. Do not surrender too easily to love. 08. Do not fall for pretty stories. 09. Do not be picky about food. 10. Do not crave a house or cling to possessions. 11. Do not seek fame or honors. 12. Do not fear death or dwell on it. 13. Do not chase wealth and valuables, even in old age. 14. Respect the gods, but ask nothing of them. 15. Think only of how you will fight.
and they also respected this;
01. Loyalty to authorities, parents, elders, and superiors. 02. Devotion to customs and norms. 03. Respect and reverence for the past. 04. Love for traditional learning. 05. Respecting good examples—role models. 06. Prioritizing moral formation over technical education. 07. Respecting nonviolence within the state and society. 08. Prudence, consideration, and a tendency toward moderation. 09. Steering clear of unnecessary rivalries. 10. Keeping your dignity when things go south. 11. Having the guts to honor our traditions. 12. The power to make your own choices. 13. Staying true to your word with others.
🤷 It also makes me think of the Ten Commandments and those ten divine laws... (though, really, it all comes down to how you interpret them)
So, take this soldier, right? This war veteran who’s talking about what soldiers actually want versus what they don't, eventually wrapping it all up by saying he's fighting against racism.
I mean, honestly, I guess he doesn't even realize what he's actually up against.
If you look at a master of the craft like Paulo Coelho, he understands both the light and the dark sides of things... which makes me wonder, why does the dark side always seem to have cookies?
War experience brings insight, sure—but only if you're actually playing the game of war, not just peace. Then again, people who play at peace can be just as manipulative, I suppose. When it comes to raising young girls in the US, maybe it would be more appropriate to show them how a blank slate is actually made, rather than just clearing a space and trying to force whatever we want into it.
Otherwise, there's just no love in it. It's like when a cycle keeps spinning but never actually closes into a circle... We're talking about the alchemy of personality here. It's a way of existing that most people would probably deny just because they're too busy being entertained by the surface-level games. These kinds of transformations can drive people to madness or even suicide—it's not just about wanting to kill others under the guise of self-defense... or that whole need for market control that the soldier in the video describes.
It’s fine to define spirituality that way, and it’s pretty noble of you to have those intentions. But, I guess you can't just assume your own state of being doesn't impact the people you interact with. A peaceful person creates peace; a restless person creates unrest. Treating spirituality as something purely internal is kind of like saying art is only for the artists who make it. Understanding these mechanics means being able to control yourself. So, in the end, it's really no different from the version of spirituality you're setting up as your starting point.
Expecting everyone else to be peaceful just so you can feel peaceful... well, that feels a bit like playing God. If you act solely on that desire, you might accidentally ruin your neighbors' lives just to satisfy your own ego. Spirituality isn't just living in a cave or total isolation, even if some people see it that way... And honestly, the very urge to renounce all conflict might just be another form of manipulation. What if conflict is just unavoidable?
It’s just not the same... nothing like it, really... You could probably argue that spirituality is mostly just sweeping the porch before anyone notices the mess, or maybe just that endless, exhausting struggle to get the speck out of your own eye before you start pointing fingers at everyone else... It’s funny how things work out, isn't it... how everything just seems to pivot in favor of everyone else but you, while you're left standing there watching the whole thing unfold... It feels like every single development, every little shift in the wind, only ever serves to benefit the other guys...
So, take this soldier, right? This war veteran who’s talking about what soldiers actually want versus what they don't, eventually wrapping it all up by saying he's fighting against racism.
I mean, honestly, I guess he doesn't even realize what he's actually up against.
If you look at a master of the craft like Paulo Coelho, he understands both the light and the dark sides of things... which makes me wonder, why does the dark side always seem to have cookies?
War experience brings insight, sure—but only if you're actually playing the game of war, not just peace. Then again, people who play at peace can be just as manipulative, I suppose. When it comes to raising young girls in the US, maybe it would be more appropriate to show them how a blank slate is actually made, rather than just clearing a space and trying to force whatever we want into it.
Otherwise, there's just no love in it. It's like when a cycle keeps spinning but never actually closes into a circle... We're talking about the alchemy of personality here. It's a way of existing that most people would probably deny just because they're too busy being entertained by the surface-level games. These kinds of transformations can drive people to madness or even suicide—it's not just about wanting to kill others under the guise of self-defense... or that whole need for market control that the soldier in the video describes.
It’s fine to define spirituality that way, and it’s pretty noble of you to have those intentions. But, I guess you can't just assume your own state of being doesn't impact the people you interact with. A peaceful person creates peace; a restless person creates unrest. Treating spirituality as something purely internal is kind of like saying art is only for the artists who make it. Understanding these mechanics means being able to control yourself. So, in the end, it's really no different from the version of spirituality you're setting up as your starting point.
Expecting everyone else to be peaceful just so you can feel peaceful... well, that feels a bit like playing God. If you act solely on that desire, you might accidentally ruin your neighbors' lives just to satisfy your own ego. Spirituality isn't just living in a cave or total isolation, even if some people see it that way... And honestly, the very urge to renounce all conflict might just be another form of manipulation. What if conflict is just unavoidable?
It all comes back to our origin, you know... that primal, fundamental essence that defines the very nature of every living thing out there. When you really strip everything away and look at the core of existence, we're all starting from the exact same baseline, possessing the same inherent potential and capacity for being... it doesn't matter what kind of role we've decided to play in this messy, material reality we call life... we all have the same foundation underneath it all...
So, take this soldier, right? This war veteran who’s talking about what soldiers actually want versus what they don't, eventually wrapping it all up by saying he's fighting against racism.
I mean, honestly, I guess he doesn't even realize what he's actually up against.
If you look at a master of the craft like Paulo Coelho, he understands both the light and the dark sides of things... which makes me wonder, why does the dark side always seem to have cookies?
War experience brings insight, sure—but only if you're actually playing the game of war, not just peace. Then again, people who play at peace can be just as manipulative, I suppose. When it comes to raising young girls in the US, maybe it would be more appropriate to show them how a blank slate is actually made, rather than just clearing a space and trying to force whatever we want into it.
Otherwise, there's just no love in it. It's like when a cycle keeps spinning but never actually closes into a circle... We're talking about the alchemy of personality here. It's a way of existing that most people would probably deny just because they're too busy being entertained by the surface-level games. These kinds of transformations can drive people to madness or even suicide—it's not just about wanting to kill others under the guise of self-defense... or that whole need for market control that the soldier in the video describes.
It’s fine to define spirituality that way, and it’s pretty noble of you to have those intentions. But, I guess you can't just assume your own state of being doesn't impact the people you interact with. A peaceful person creates peace; a restless person creates unrest. Treating spirituality as something purely internal is kind of like saying art is only for the artists who make it. Understanding these mechanics means being able to control yourself. So, in the end, it's really no different from the version of spirituality you're setting up as your starting point.
Expecting everyone else to be peaceful just so you can feel peaceful... well, that feels a bit like playing God. If you act solely on that desire, you might accidentally ruin your neighbors' lives just to satisfy your own ego. Spirituality isn't just living in a cave or total isolation, even if some people see it that way... And honestly, the very urge to renounce all conflict might just be another form of manipulation. What if conflict is just unavoidable?
Life isn't really anything more than playing God... it's just that we all choose to play the part in such wildly different ways... Eventually? I mean, how exactly am I supposed to contribute to anyone else's downfall if they won't even allow it themselves... 🤷 ...and honestly, at the end of the day, we all share the exact same spiritual predispositions...
So, take this soldier, right? This war veteran who’s talking about what soldiers actually want versus what they don't, eventually wrapping it all up by saying he's fighting against racism.
I mean, honestly, I guess he doesn't even realize what he's actually up against.
If you look at a master of the craft like Paulo Coelho, he understands both the light and the dark sides of things... which makes me wonder, why does the dark side always seem to have cookies?
War experience brings insight, sure—but only if you're actually playing the game of war, not just peace. Then again, people who play at peace can be just as manipulative, I suppose. When it comes to raising young girls in the US, maybe it would be more appropriate to show them how a blank slate is actually made, rather than just clearing a space and trying to force whatever we want into it.
Otherwise, there's just no love in it. It's like when a cycle keeps spinning but never actually closes into a circle... We're talking about the alchemy of personality here. It's a way of existing that most people would probably deny just because they're too busy being entertained by the surface-level games. These kinds of transformations can drive people to madness or even suicide—it's not just about wanting to kill others under the guise of self-defense... or that whole need for market control that the soldier in the video describes.
It’s fine to define spirituality that way, and it’s pretty noble of you to have those intentions. But, I guess you can't just assume your own state of being doesn't impact the people you interact with. A peaceful person creates peace; a restless person creates unrest. Treating spirituality as something purely internal is kind of like saying art is only for the artists who make it. Understanding these mechanics means being able to control yourself. So, in the end, it's really no different from the version of spirituality you're setting up as your starting point.
Expecting everyone else to be peaceful just so you can feel peaceful... well, that feels a bit like playing God. If you act solely on that desire, you might accidentally ruin your neighbors' lives just to satisfy your own ego. Spirituality isn't just living in a cave or total isolation, even if some people see it that way... And honestly, the very urge to renounce all conflict might just be another form of manipulation. What if conflict is just unavoidable?
Absolutely not... though I suppose someone out there might actually try to live that way if they were truly determined...
So, take this soldier, right? This war veteran who’s talking about what soldiers actually want versus what they don't, eventually wrapping it all up by saying he's fighting against racism.
I mean, honestly, I guess he doesn't even realize what he's actually up against.
If you look at a master of the craft like Paulo Coelho, he understands both the light and the dark sides of things... which makes me wonder, why does the dark side always seem to have cookies?
War experience brings insight, sure—but only if you're actually playing the game of war, not just peace. Then again, people who play at peace can be just as manipulative, I suppose. When it comes to raising young girls in the US, maybe it would be more appropriate to show them how a blank slate is actually made, rather than just clearing a space and trying to force whatever we want into it.
Otherwise, there's just no love in it. It's like when a cycle keeps spinning but never actually closes into a circle... We're talking about the alchemy of personality here. It's a way of existing that most people would probably deny just because they're too busy being entertained by the surface-level games. These kinds of transformations can drive people to madness or even suicide—it's not just about wanting to kill others under the guise of self-defense... or that whole need for market control that the soldier in the video describes.
It’s fine to define spirituality that way, and it’s pretty noble of you to have those intentions. But, I guess you can't just assume your own state of being doesn't impact the people you interact with. A peaceful person creates peace; a restless person creates unrest. Treating spirituality as something purely internal is kind of like saying art is only for the artists who make it. Understanding these mechanics means being able to control yourself. So, in the end, it's really no different from the version of spirituality you're setting up as your starting point.
Expecting everyone else to be peaceful just so you can feel peaceful... well, that feels a bit like playing God. If you act solely on that desire, you might accidentally ruin your neighbors' lives just to satisfy your own ego. Spirituality isn't just living in a cave or total isolation, even if some people see it that way... And honestly, the very urge to renounce all conflict might just be another form of manipulation. What if conflict is just unavoidable?
What kind of manipulation are we even talking about? And who—for whatever reason they might have—gets to decide whether something is truly inevitable or not?
The whole idea of the use of spirituality and warfare is just fundamentally incompatible, no matter how much people try to dress it up by splashing holy water around or claiming they’re fighting for some "higher" cause or greater good... At its core, true spirituality is about renouncing all forms of combat, yet somehow, these self-proclaimed spiritualists always find ways to weaponize it to serve their own completely unspiritual agendas. (That’s a different conversation if you’re talking about a state of mind, but let’s be clear—that isn't what spirituality actually means.)
Thanks, Angela Wright and brisksurfer, for the kind words... 🙂 I know the theory behind how I should be handling all this, really I do, but putting it into practice is a whole different story... I know I need to stop spiraling into these self-pitying moods, but somehow it feels like I’m just watching everything unfold from the sidelines, almost like a spectator in my own life instead of actually living through it... The hardest part is that my husband just won't communicate with our daughter at all, and when it comes to me, he only talks if I practically force him to... It honestly feels like he’s just ignoring us, as if he views us as the enemy or maybe even thinks we’re the ones to blame for his condition, yet the moment someone drops by—especially his sister—he completely transforms, becomes chatty, even laughs.... man, I have no idea what she must think of it all, and whenever I try to ask him why he acts this way, he just hits me with some ironic remark.... 😢 A friend told me it's because he feels guilty toward us and that he loves us... honestly, he was never the type to wear his heart on his sleeve; he’s always kept everything bottled up inside, and now it’s just become so much more intense.... it feels like there's a literal stone sitting in the middle of our house...
Heh, I don't want to be overly dramatic about it, because I know people have their own struggles to deal with, but it helps just to vent a little bit like this, because I feel so abandoned and lonely, and I don't really have anyone else to talk to... people tend to steer clear of getting involved in situations like this... and I can't even blame them...
It’s funny how we all just drift around in these little individual bubbles, isn't it? We bump into people living in similar little bubbles and think, "Yeah, this is it," never once considering that there are entire worlds of people living in completely different realities... at least not until our own bubble suddenly bursts wide open... Mine popped just over a month ago, when my husband ended up in the hospital with advanced liver cirrhosis. He basically destroyed himself with alcohol, and in doing so, he flipped our entire family's life upside down... First it was pure despair, then the anger set in, followed by this paralyzing fear for him, and then fear for us—wondering what happens next, how we move forward—and eventually it just turns into resignation, disappointment, and this constant, gnawing anxiety..... He’s back home now, essentially being kept going by medication; if he can somehow pull through the next six months, a liver transplant might actually be on the table... that is, if he doesn't touch a single drop of alcohol, if he manages to hold out until then, if they actually put him on the list, and if a donor is found... Everything—both my personal life and the business—has fallen squarely on my shoulders since he's the owner of the small company we both work for. I'm constantly worried about my daughter, too, who is struggling so hard to process her father's illness; she's fighting back with aggression and rage, neglecting her schoolwork, just running away from everything... and I don't have any time left for my own parents, who are aging and frail themselves and were counting on my help, yet all I hear from everyone is "you have to do this" or "you must do that for him" or "you need to help her"... while I just sit here feeling utterly helpless, with no idea where to begin or even which direction to head in... The only thing I do is pray constantly that God gives me the health, the strength, and the capacity to carry this whole situation, to do the absolute best I can for both my husband and my daughter, and that I don't lose that optimistic outlook I used to have... I pray that all my feelings, thoughts, words, and actions stem only from love, so that I don't end up hurting anyone while I'm sitting here this sensitive and caught in this constant turbulence of emotions... Anyway, that's why I stumbled upon this topic, thanks to Angela Wright for starting it... it feels a little easier to get through things when you're in good company....